Ramadhan, camping

Assalamualaikum.. Today is the 11th day of ramadhan.. It seems like time was fly soo fast until i didn't realize  how much time had passsed in my life. On saturday and sunday, I managed to get into a camp with my fellow Peers friend. Before I reach the camp, there was lots of incident happens which make my courage being stopped. However, I was able to reach the camp even that I only manage to handle an activity or two. But this is not what I want to say. In this camp, we going to SMK Agama Papar which is a religious school. Well, when I said religious school, what would pop up from your mind? Usually, people would think on this: tasbih, guy with jubah, serban and etc. However, when I reach there.. there are other thing that I had learned. That is Humble and grateful. The food in that school was not as good. We managed to sleep not at dorm as we always be when we handling program. But all of us ( the guy) sleep at the surau where there was a room.. But what i want to say, i was grateful and not talking bad about it. what happen in that school had teach me that we should be grateful.. and from that moment... I'm holding the principle of: sometimes things which is little but adequate is better than things which are much but will be wasteful. 

Other thing that I learn is about friendship. During the reflection slot. We bring the kids back to their childhood.. How they should appreciate their friends. We ask them to write a letter for 3 friends in that hall who they love the most. and unfortunately for 2 boys and 2 girls as they didn't received any letter at all. and that was the most touching moment I ever met in my life. And that make me realize.. who is my friend? As i live until now.. I don't have many friend. Maybe for some reason. they might didn't like me.. not me.. but maybe some of my attitude.. But one thing about me.. i dunno what is it.. I just an ordinary guy which was trying to live in my ordinary capacity without have to rely on other person except when i need to.

When we playing with things called EMOTION

In our life, someway we might meet with some people which would trigger our desire to know the very well. The person make us feels so hungry to know more about him/her closely. However, in our way to get know about the person there would be some clash that would happen during the process. The process would known as the process of knowing each other. The person might feel the same way as we thought, maybe not. Sometimes, the process would not getting well due to some unwanted or unintentionally collision that had happen during the process.the collision that happen might cause big or small amount of impact based on how we interpret the collision and also how we control the collision. It was based our own way of think that would determine how the impact would going on. Either it was bad one, or might become bad but when we think deeply, it would become the good one. As I mention before, its depends on ourselves on how to make the impact was good or bad. For example, the person who we want to get know was getting angry as the result of an action that we had done to him/her. The action might not the big one, but it would carries a lot of impact to the opposition. Again, this is how the matter of our mind set would become important. If the person was a positive person, he would think on why this thing would happen and they would might blame on himself for the result of his action. However, when I'm saying that he was blame himself, it was not a type of blaming that make his to doing something which is beyond his own ability or the normal norm of human. He would take the action or the result of what happen to him as one of the lesson which he would gain benefit from it in the future. For a negative person, he would completely think on the different point of view which would make him think that the reason behind the action of the person towards him was completely happen on his own fault. Thus he would keep on blaming on himself. As a result, there we go.. Some of abnormal human behavior would being commit by the person. As a person who would always being played with emotion in our life, sometimes we would find our self trapped in our own emotion and we didn't find any way out from his misery, torture and self blaming that what happen is all his fault.

I thinks the best way to stand aside form this excessive emotion problem is to keep staying positive. It would be fine to look things in neutral view which would evaluate things from both side of the problem. That should be the best way to avoid our emotion from pushing us too much as emotion would always make us doing the wrong thing sometimes.However, if we are able to manage our on emotion balance it with our Intellectual Quotation (IQ) it would be the best for us. Don't let the emotion burn your ability to use your IQ! Don't let it controlling your life. Look for someone who will to guide you to the better ways and the most importantly, you should enjoying your life as your life is not a play! So, better move on. One more thing, never give up if you had someone which was worth you. Then don't stop chasing the person!

Just a quote of my heart

In our journey in this life. We may seen something happen to us. However we can't interpret our feeling on how that thing should be done or finished off. Human mind and feeling is two related component of human being. Even though both of this thing is an abstract thing, mean it can't be seen, touched but we can feel it. We can't describe it we even can't picture it. It may possible for a photographer to illustrate a pain of a person who was depressed or broken hearted, but when u ask them to paint a picture on the broken hearted, can they do that? Its difficult enough, The pain inside is such greater than the outside pain. The cut deep enough. It can be proven in history or classic literature such as in Romeo and Juliet, Cleopatra and the other classic literature that would illustrate the pain of losing someone we love. However, it never crossed our mind that we used to be happy, we used to be enjoying our life better. The incident which is bad and good, luck and bad luck is two things that would help us to balance our life. This two things will balance our life by teaching us how to passing through the test of life. This is the real test. Take an example, we lost something important to us, then we must feels sad. However, should we be happy that we still standing, we still breathing? The main point is to appreciate what had happen to you. Through the bad incident, you will be able to create a good things.

Sometimes, we may meet someone who used to hurt us, either physically or mentally. Being hurt physically is not bad enough other than mentally injured by someone. Usually we would found there are no way out for mentally injured other than forgiving what they had done to you and continue your life without them. Continue your life just like before the incident happen would be hard as the incident would change everything inside of you. From your way of think until how u react over the incident.found someone to replace the empty place in your heart may cause other impact. Its may not the good impact, as your heart may being motivated by the desire of having a revenge or the emptiness that you feel in your heart. My advice to myself and other people, please don't accept someone too fast. Know him/her well, thanks for her differences because from the differences between both of you, u can complete her life..

as for me.. my heart will heal after the bad incident and I was lucky for having several people around of me giving me support so that I can move on. will be continue after I have a good news to tell.. =)

Kind heart and Sincerity

lot of people keep doubting about how can sincere can help them to pass through their life. however, when we think deeply into the matter, I think that its truely important to have this two value in our life. Someone had said to me a long time ago, when we be nice with other people.. We don't have to tell them, I'm sincere with you. But let them feel on their own that we are sincere towards them. Pure sincere will be feels by the other party. We don't have to show it. But they will feel it on their own. Can you see now how both of this things are related together? Without kind heart, no sincere will happen. However, as I always mention in the previous post. No body in this would born to be purely bad guy and bad girl. I believe that there would be some kindness in their heart. We are human being provided with kindness in our heart. So lets not blame on the person only. But keep on thinking and examining the surrounding that may influence his emotion. Human being is a complex creature that God had ever create as we have the ability to manipulate things around us. For example, let we see how human being can manipulate metals for their own purpose such as for mold ring and so on. However, as I mention that human being is complex as they can manipulate thing around them to make something bad. lets take a look at the metal that had been used as example just now, human can make weapon from the metal that will guide to murder in their own society that would leave destruction behind their action. Some of us may asked, if its true that human being are full with love and kindness, why should this happen? I left that on your judgement and together we may discuss it further. So the big question among all is, how we can help to bring back the humanity among our people that had lack of the two values that I had mentioned above?

Beautiful is within yourself

This is my first post since my last time posting in this blog. It almost a year since my last visit and wrote something in my blog. I can used to write back in my blog when I thinks that I have something to share with my blog reader ( Even my blog follower can be counted by finger). The terms 'Beautiful' is a subjective terms. Why is that so? I guess many of the reader was wondering why I'm saying that beautiful is a subjective terms. Beautiful can't be described and that make this terms become subjective, thus mean the terms was not fixed and can be anything. The terms beautiful is also the matters of heart. It was based on the person's heart to evaluate whether itw as beautiful or not. However, compared with the eyes and the heart. Heart is the unbiased element in human being. We also have to remember, there are two types of heart in human being that is Smal heart and Big heart. Use your small heart in evaluating something and you would find most of the answer for the question that you asked was answer honestly by small heart rather that big heart. I got this information about Small Heart and Big Heart when I was reading a motivation book wrote by Dr. Tuah Iskandar al-Haj, one of the motivation figure in Malaysia. Now get back to the point, why I'm saying its better to use your heart rather than your eyes? Its is because our eyes only can see what was revealed only, it can't evaluate what is in the inner. For example, when you are diving what u see in the surface of the sea is not what is exactly you will faced. Sometimes, due to the eyes illusion, we might think that the water is not depth, but we will only know about the truth when we goes in to the surface. During that moment, we would know how deep is the water. This is the metaphor that I was used to explaining on the eyes illusion and explaining that what your eyes see not necessary to be true. Thats why i'm suggesting for you to use your heart along with your mind combination to thinks more deeper into something. Hence, it was not enough to use your eyes to determine whether something we see is beautiful or ugly.

Now come to the second reason, beauty can be based on people's perspective. Thus mean it was depends on how the people looks at the things. In history, during the Old days, women who is fat considered as beautiful compared with skinny women. Now, the terms implied was goes to the other side, the fat women considered as ugly. Now we can see that the term beautiful can be so subjective as it always change along with times and the people perception about it.

As I always mention in my previous post in my blog, it was crucial for a women to have inner beauty. Inner beauty is not the 'awet muda' but the beautiful of their soul. To see whether someone is beautiful in their soul, take a look on how she interact with other people, how she talks with other people, how she react when she saw something bad happen to other people. For me this is more important that the outer beauty. Outer beauty will fade along with time, does anyone who will not aging? Anybody? Off course not, but the inner beauty will not fade along with time, if the person keep with her oldself, then the beauty would get together with her. Not matter how how is she. So, I will leave you with this question as a conclusion: which type of beauty you consider? Inner that is temporary and would fade with time or the inner beauty that would be with you forever?

When World Seen in Black and White colour

phew... It seems it had been a long time since my last post here. Hurm.. too many things happen in my life lately. Now we have an issue that might make everyone who read this might feels quite excited about this. Colour. Everyone love colour right? We can see it because when we ask someone, " what is your favourite colour?" there must be an answer by the person we asked. I haven't found yet a person answering" oh, i don't have any." there must be an answer for every question we asked. but what i'm going to talk here, is not about colour that is a physical, a concrete mean of colour. but i'm going to talk about the colour of life. this colour is abstract colour, we can't see them, but we can feel them. lately, lots of teenager finished off their life because of simple matter such as love, study and so on. I think that this matter is quite serious because teenager is a future generation that will continue the current leadership.

The main question is Why does they think that way?

one of the reason why is because teenager is still in the process to develop their own identity, thus it is easy for their emotion to being broken down. Thus make teenager needs a lots of attention in order to handle their own emotion. Transformation from a child to a teenager is not easy this days. lots of challenge would coming. As they passing through many changes either biological or mentally, teenager this days have to adapt with the new surrounding which is extremely dangerous for them if they can't manage themselves. It was understandable that they faces changes either in their emotion. However, they would have to look for some reliable person which they can trust. Teen nowadays seem feel afraid to sharing their problem with their parents. Hence, parents also need to playing their own role in explaining or comforting their children. If possible, don't trying to watching over them too heavy or they might feel blocked or annoyed with care that had been given to them. I don't saying that the secure by the parents is unnecessary, i think parents should take moderate view in watching their child. Usually, when a teen was being secured too much. They might think that their parents don't trust them. However, when the parents was giving too much trust to their children would become a problem too as the teenager might goes out of control. Therefore, the best way is to take moderate consideration on the child action.

Other than that, I think that the teenager would need to learn on how to deal with their personal matter. But as I mention before, the interference from their parents is crucial as they have to know their children very well. Duty of the parents not only on giving appropriate things for their child, it also giving them guidance so they would growing up in a right manner.

For teenager, the world is full with colors, don't see the world only in black and white. Seek for something that would make you happy and cherish. It was wonderful to have a color of life. But, remember to control what you had feel!

Perfection is within us...

It seems its a long time since my last post here in my blog. Since that I don't have big follower for the blog then I thinks it doesn't matter whether I post something in my blog or not. Besides, I will facing my final examination soon. So I guess that its way more important than posting in my blog. This week I had been contacted by my friend from UAE, it seems that she facing with some trouble about the decision that she must made for her future. As i always mention in my previous post, our future is something that we can't confirm and deal with it. I mean, the future is something that we can't see through our own eyes and also can't be reach by our mind. So I says to her that she must construct a plan for her future very well in order to ensure that her future will become bright, or else it will become a disasterous thing that she will experienced. Not that thing or issue that I'm going to discuss in here, but before that let me continues with my friends story. Then she come with a story of the "perfect" girl in her school mocking her own teacher not behind of the teacher's back but she express it openly. Here we got some issue to discuss. Look, does it academic matter most in our life. I mean do the academic achievement allows us to looks down at others who was below us? Come on. Academic achievement doesn't make sense at all in this matter. If someone is highly academic achiever, and her attitude is good, then that is the true achievement. If only the academic is good, but the attitude is not good at all, then what does the academic make sense? She also got the "perfect" girl award in the school. Man, I think this school may make a big mistake by choosing this girl. I'm not insulting anyone. But technically, this is the fact. Furthermore, I thinks that no one in this world can being considered as Perfect. because the perfection only for Him. The one who create this wonderful world. So how come this girl with that kind of attitude got the award? I thinks the criteria for the award should be revised that it should include the aspect of personality of the candidate. I thinks that it should be balanced between academic and also personality. Because I strongly thinks that there is no use that we had achieve highly performance of academic but our attitude if far more than being considered as good. Then come to the issue of perfect. How can this can being considered as an issue? Perfect.. Is one of the most desirable word that every person want in this world. Ask anyone you meet and ask them question of whether they want to have perfection in their life? They will answer yes. However, we know that in our way to chase perfection, it become disaster. For example, we can see how many person in this world will to not eating just want to get the perfect curve for their body? How many women will to doing plastic surgery that comes with 1001 probability and effect? see?? this is cause by the ossesion to become perfect for human, but doesn't they realize that they had already perfect without they have to doing plastic surgery and so on? See the verse in Qoran of surah Al-Tin, verse 4: Verily, We created man of the best stature (mould).. ( Cited from http://www.noblequran.com/translation/surah95.html) So, why must we chase the perfection if the perfection already exist in ourself?

So I thinks that we should realize who we are and from what we had been created. Dun cahse too much perfection in our life. We have to look down at ourself. We are nothing compared with Him who knows every single things that will happen to us.