Ramadhan, camping

Assalamualaikum.. Today is the 11th day of ramadhan.. It seems like time was fly soo fast until i didn't realize  how much time had passsed in my life. On saturday and sunday, I managed to get into a camp with my fellow Peers friend. Before I reach the camp, there was lots of incident happens which make my courage being stopped. However, I was able to reach the camp even that I only manage to handle an activity or two. But this is not what I want to say. In this camp, we going to SMK Agama Papar which is a religious school. Well, when I said religious school, what would pop up from your mind? Usually, people would think on this: tasbih, guy with jubah, serban and etc. However, when I reach there.. there are other thing that I had learned. That is Humble and grateful. The food in that school was not as good. We managed to sleep not at dorm as we always be when we handling program. But all of us ( the guy) sleep at the surau where there was a room.. But what i want to say, i was grateful and not talking bad about it. what happen in that school had teach me that we should be grateful.. and from that moment... I'm holding the principle of: sometimes things which is little but adequate is better than things which are much but will be wasteful. 

Other thing that I learn is about friendship. During the reflection slot. We bring the kids back to their childhood.. How they should appreciate their friends. We ask them to write a letter for 3 friends in that hall who they love the most. and unfortunately for 2 boys and 2 girls as they didn't received any letter at all. and that was the most touching moment I ever met in my life. And that make me realize.. who is my friend? As i live until now.. I don't have many friend. Maybe for some reason. they might didn't like me.. not me.. but maybe some of my attitude.. But one thing about me.. i dunno what is it.. I just an ordinary guy which was trying to live in my ordinary capacity without have to rely on other person except when i need to.

When we playing with things called EMOTION

In our life, someway we might meet with some people which would trigger our desire to know the very well. The person make us feels so hungry to know more about him/her closely. However, in our way to get know about the person there would be some clash that would happen during the process. The process would known as the process of knowing each other. The person might feel the same way as we thought, maybe not. Sometimes, the process would not getting well due to some unwanted or unintentionally collision that had happen during the process.the collision that happen might cause big or small amount of impact based on how we interpret the collision and also how we control the collision. It was based our own way of think that would determine how the impact would going on. Either it was bad one, or might become bad but when we think deeply, it would become the good one. As I mention before, its depends on ourselves on how to make the impact was good or bad. For example, the person who we want to get know was getting angry as the result of an action that we had done to him/her. The action might not the big one, but it would carries a lot of impact to the opposition. Again, this is how the matter of our mind set would become important. If the person was a positive person, he would think on why this thing would happen and they would might blame on himself for the result of his action. However, when I'm saying that he was blame himself, it was not a type of blaming that make his to doing something which is beyond his own ability or the normal norm of human. He would take the action or the result of what happen to him as one of the lesson which he would gain benefit from it in the future. For a negative person, he would completely think on the different point of view which would make him think that the reason behind the action of the person towards him was completely happen on his own fault. Thus he would keep on blaming on himself. As a result, there we go.. Some of abnormal human behavior would being commit by the person. As a person who would always being played with emotion in our life, sometimes we would find our self trapped in our own emotion and we didn't find any way out from his misery, torture and self blaming that what happen is all his fault.

I thinks the best way to stand aside form this excessive emotion problem is to keep staying positive. It would be fine to look things in neutral view which would evaluate things from both side of the problem. That should be the best way to avoid our emotion from pushing us too much as emotion would always make us doing the wrong thing sometimes.However, if we are able to manage our on emotion balance it with our Intellectual Quotation (IQ) it would be the best for us. Don't let the emotion burn your ability to use your IQ! Don't let it controlling your life. Look for someone who will to guide you to the better ways and the most importantly, you should enjoying your life as your life is not a play! So, better move on. One more thing, never give up if you had someone which was worth you. Then don't stop chasing the person!